Twist and turns...

Expect the unexpected. 

After a rough weekend I decided to keep my tentative appointment with my Oncologist, at 11am this morning. So the dream of digging in at the farm for an interrupted week was being tampered with, but hey, not that big a deal to come into town.

After a very slow start to the morning, I finally got the wheels on and ended up 15 minutes late for the appointment at BH, lucky my Doc is relaxed and no preciousness. It was a great relief to share my weekend with someone who I trust and can confide in, I found it quite a challenging time.

Before I knew it, the drip was back in, the anti nausea drugs flowing, and some steroids and fluids all connected and running.

Then there was the....'you are still on the way down, your mouth is about to fall fall out', and so on. 

My tongue looks like fur, I can hardly talk with mouth sores...but a smile remains painless, so all is good. 

Although farm neighbors Simon & Cecelia, Peter & Ginette have all been happy to baby sit me at the vineyard, Tabitha didn't share my enthusiasm to stay at the property alone, and poor Sylv and the girls are just flat out so...BACK TO TOWN for the week. Damn!

Well, I am assured after next weekend I will start to see things slowly return to normal. Given my medical advisors have been spot on so far with their advice, and as I said last night, I am listening, they have got my attention.

By the way, they also said to keep very quiet about being back in town, to be sure  I would get no visitors for the rest of the week....so shhhhh, don't tell a sole. Seriously, I really am in no state to be interesting or good company, and I will be laying very low while things settle down. If my mouth continues to deteriorate I won't be answering calls or anything, so please don't get mad.

Tonight all new drugs, and some clear instructions as to what is important this week. Suzannah took a quick run back to the farm late today to pick everything up. Given I intended to be gone for just a few hours, I left everything going including the combustion fire ready to head straight back after my appointment this morning. Fresh food stocked up, all set ready for me to chill out and start my recovery.

Thanks Suz, sorry for those at work that I stole her back, but I must say, having my 3 girls around to all pitch in has been one of the great joys in this journey. I feel very spoilt, how lucky to not be alone. I have met cancer patients in the past 5 weeks that are alone, now that would be just so so tough. 

Quite exciting in a twisted way. So many unexpected twists and turns. Can't say cancer is dull and boring.

Time for bed, a bit of a lottery these days as to how the night rolls out, I feel confident, tonight will be a 'one wake night'.

Here's hoping.