Big mouth...

I have never experienced a mouth like this. It feels like it is going to explode right at the moment.

I have talked about this cancer treatment as a case of taking one day at a time and working through the treatments. Right now, I am taking one hour at a time. I have taken a few calls over the past 2 hours, big mistake (but I can't help myself it seems). Not another tonight. Seriously, at the time of writing this, it feels like a grenade has gone off in my mouth.

It took me 90 minutes to get through my simple lunch today...I think shakes are looking increasingly likely tonight and tomorrow, unless something drastically good happens in the next half an hour.

I have thrown everything at this...and wow, none of those amazing drugs have touched it yet. Supremely optimistic, I am thinking my magic liquid morphine will kick in and calm things down a bit soon.  It hasn't touched it yet.

So today I did have a VERY, VERY exciting moment. I had delivered my brand new chair that Bill (Kachirski) who owns Posture Care Chair Company fast tracked for me. It is just amazing. I thought these chairs were for "oldies." At 54, I know the kids think I am an oldie BUT I have to say, mine looks very cool. Soft plush black leather, deep supportive cushions, and actually made right here in Adelaide to actual measurements...of ME!!

It is genuinely MY chair. I am nearly as excited as my purchase of Black Beauty, this chair is all Black and is a Beauty too.

So you see cancer has come through again. I would have never gone out and had a special chair made if I wasn't needing it, now I have it I wondered why on earth I wouldn't have had one made years ago.

Get this. Twin motors, full electronic control, adjustable everything, battery back up, and goes absolutely flat. I have spent several hours in it today, definitely a highlight for me today. Black Beauty 2, even more comfortable than Black Beauty, yet with all the accessories, and a hell of a lot cheaper!! Check out some pics below. So tonight if in the middle of the night it all turns pear shape, I'll have a second option.

Speaking of sleeping, I was hoping for a "one wake night," Ho Ho Ho. What a joke. I actually lost count. Maybe a "7 wake night," I got sick of keeping count.

Who cares anyway, at the moment it really is a matter of toughing these few days out until I bottom out. I have cancelled pretty much everything I had planned (or had in mind of doing) this week. I was hoping to catch up with Doc (this time I mean Dr PC - David Raffen - who's nick name is unsurprisingly simply Doc. It was his birthday on Saturday and I was too crook to see him so was going for Wednesday).

Having dinner with the girls, well I have had a shake. The milk has helped actually....mmmm. No way am I trying anything else tonight.

Apart from Black Beauty 2, today was a day to just tick off. One step closer to a cure.

That's it, early to bed. No predictions tonight, I jinxed it last night.

xxx

PS DON'T RING ME!!!!! It hurts way too much.

It takes two handlers to handle a whopper...the handlers from Posture Care Chair Company were fantastic. Black Beauty 2 was delivered, installed and lessons had completely effortlessly, what an organisation, and it's not made in China!!!!! It is made in ADELAIDE!!

It's Black, it's a Beauty...it's 'Black Beauty 2'...why didn't I do this years ago???