Tears today...

13/06/12 Wednesday

A great day...quiet and uneventful!

Firstly, apologies for my spelling. Mark L THANK YOU for highlighting that I make you look good.

Agreed, I can not spell for love or money and on the blog, there is no spellcheck, the print is so small that I can hardly read it...my only real option is to somehow outsmart this. Tonight I am typing into 'notes' on my iPad and then will cut and paste. There is absolutely no way I will ever get the spelling right, I am dyslexic and failed English badly at school. Never mind, and Mark, I need you to keep an eye on things for me!

Today I had to cancel a couple of appointments, and took it real steady. Mum is tracking my blog and then physically tracked me down today, worried about my temperature. All ok. Has settled down a little but keeping an eye on it as I am constantly nudging 38 degrees - the trigger to take action. Hopefully I get a decent sleep to sort it.

Radiation is cranking now. Found myself rubbing my chest today. And no, it isn't something I am accustomed to doing!! The cough is constant, but not too bad.

I did have a breakthrough last night. Teresa O dropped off some magical New Zealand honey. 250g Manuka honey certified 15+, produced by Watson and Son. $40.00!!!!!

Teresa is my angel, she just appears, performs some magic, gives me a hug and then is gone. Wouldn't take any $ for the honey, and insisted I try it. Apparently they use this honey to heal horses, not sure what the underlying message is there, but I gave it a go. One teaspoon, swallowed slowly, and like magic, last night I only took one pain bomb for the entire night. Sure, there was still some pain, but not so bad that I couldn't sleep.

The next breakthrough, Jody (my new best friend nurse) gave me some more tips on dealing with the acid burn today. Off the shelf Mylanta antacid. Everyone thought I was already on this and we discovered I wasn't today. I am so excited. Maybe some real sleep tonight.

Had the most amazing card and gift dropped in today. Kathleen F (from Goolwa), you are such a darling, I was blown away.

I have so many people I have to write to and thank, so many cards and letters, texts and emails...today there was another round of them. Reading some of the messages today, I just had tears streaming down my face, not because I was upset, but because I was overwhelmed by the kindness of the words. Rather embarrassing, I am smartening up to things though...I read my messages on my own now!!!

I am absolutely convinced that I am drawing strength from all of you; it has been a really challenging time for this little family, but we feel so privileged to have such a support network. It is humbling, I don't know how I will ever be able to repay you all for all your kindness. Thank you.

As soon as I get a chance, I will start replying to you all, but I just can't promise when, sorry.

That's it for tonight.

Into the Mylanta, and the 15+ Manuka honey, and maybe a pain bomb to get to sleep, who knows, may string some extra hours of sleep together.

PS. Please start rating  my spelling - anyone out there just give me a number....like "15" or whatever the number is...I'll see if I can improve over the journey. Love KPI's.