Over doing it...whoops, sorry Threds

I am sitting in bed, with a temperature hovering at 38 degrees and trying to get it to head south. 38 is the trigger to head into hospital, no exceptions, according to my Oncology nurse. Well, it is 37.9, popping panadol, and staying really quiet.

Today was a HUGE work day. A lesson in this for me, the body is definitely not as robust or as forgiving as when I was healthy. I have always pushed the boundaries, but the boundaries have now been moved, damn.

So why such a big day? Well, as always, the most challenging times in 27 years of business invariably relates to people. I felt pretty let down yesterday by a couple of people, but no blame, no excuses, it's merely a part of being in business. Some people NEVER change, to MB, good on ya, you never fail to astound me! Through experince I have found that the best approach is to take big disappointments on the chin, sort it, and move on. Real estate is such a brutal business (that's why the vineyard provides Sylv and I such balance, absolute opposite). Cancer too is brutal. In a weird way, I feel mentally well practiced for my cancer journey as a result of this.

Here is the irony about today. Tonight Sylv and I were meant to be with Tim and Megan (Thredgold) celebrating 25 years of working together, mateship and sharing experiences. We have worked together through awesome markets and markets far worse than the current one. Sorry Megan and Tim, rain check and we will have another go next week. These are the guys we should be putting our energies into...how often do we spend time with the wrong people?

Here is the twist. It may be my imagination, but I sensed a real buzz around the office this afternoon. I reckon things happen for a reason, those resignations seem to have lifted a dark cloud off of the team. I have seen this several times in my 27 years of T&T, where high achievers leave, and the entire team just lift. We have such a depth of awesome and loyal people, we must have been doing something right over all those years.

Enough of all that...the daily activities of business owners are so similar.

I may have a temperature, I may have over done it today, but tonight I feel so relieved and excited about the business, the people, and writing this blog tonight I am feeling defiant to my cancer as well. In a good space.

Defiant maybe, but the radiotherapy is starting to bite. Had a great chat with nurse Jody today (hi Jody), my new friend who is so calm and caring, and has a real presence...thank you. Black Beauty did the visit today, so we peeked through the blinds and shared a laugh about my new baby.

Janine followed me up tonight, she is my "head Doc" and is going to program me. I haven't done my homework yet, but there is no way she will let me off the hook, I can see that already!

I have a solid week of treatments, and thanks to the long weekend, I have to play catch up this Saturday with 5 treatments in a row - the honeymoon is well and truly over.

Just rechecked my temperature - 37.6, whew. Heading down! Feeling better already.

Thoughts...I must say I am struggling to reconcile work and rest. I am drawn to work like bees to honey, I love it. It is like a blend of sport and chess...a test of the wits and for me, nothing turns me on more than pushing the boundaries on technology assisted selling, and yet I know I should forget all this, and just focus on getting well.

That's all fine in theory, but I feel so sorry for myself sitting around being sick, at least I don't get a chance to feel sick when doing the work thing. Crashing tonight has sent me a message though. I better find that balance pretty quickly, and I suspect it will be a moving target.

Tonight I want to dedicate my blog to my awesome fellow team mates, to Tim and Megan, Sylvia and the kids and to all those that stepped up to another level today, I am so proud.

Time to pump some pain killers, and get as much sleep as I can.

PS. 37.7...mmmm